砂漠のJeffire

Jeffirean Stories

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Finally I have time to change the blog song! Actually it's not that I don't have the time, it's just that I don't have the mood. Like what Keanbon wrote in his blog, some of us formulate thoughts when we are really doing our usual routine, not when we are in front of the computer trying to put something down. So either you make blogging a routine like IceQueen or you wait till you have the mood.

And I realised that many people no longer have that kind of mood to blog. Especially those who have already begun work, take a look at Yingzie, ShashaBear, Princess Cow, Jinki, Kevin, etc. Charles, Joycezie, , Keanbon, Kaibin, JQi, and myself and some other blogs I read have a pattern of sporadic entry. The only routine blogs now seems to be only of my senior Peimin's and IceQueen's. Wonder how do they make it such a routine?

Apart from that, another issue I actually like to reflect is about friends. What do we exactly want from a friend? Like I mentioned long ago, I have friends which I put in different circles, but I realised, it is not just that simple. Some friends move into the closer circle at certain times, some move out over time. What do I exactly look for in a good friend? Here's what I feel, a good friend:

a. Should be nice to talk to, no airs, humourous, not petty minded
b. Should have some elements of gossiper, complainer, whiner, and supporter
c. Should have initiative to link up, hang out
d. Should have diverse interests, may not be similar to mine
e. Should have a mindset of self-improvement always

Most importantly, a good friend should not even bother about the list above. It's fated. Really, in life, you never know what you get.

So why are some people sick of the world, sick of life?

Some people we meet makes our day, some other people we meet breaks our day. Some people are very unlucky to meet all the unwelcomed people, while some of them are adverse to meeting anymore unwelcomed people because of the old adage "one bitten twice shy". Seriously, no matter how we psycho ourselves, we cannot really forget about the past. That's so sad, isn't it? Listen to how the song comments on this...

Nonetheless, the ever positive Jeffire says, "if you try long enough, one day you will get it". How long is long, I have no idea, but certainly we should try to enjoy the processo of trying at least.

Brings me back to the last part of this entry. I went to the audition badly prepared, and I doubt I will pass because I probably used only 10% of my singing prowess. However I forgot all the basics, like facial expression, eye contact, breathing blah blah blah, so I think the judges may think that I am wasting their time. They didn't even ask me to sing a 2nd song lor! While I think it's another good lesson learnt, a few friends whom I think they are very close to me, they said

"丢脸"
"不要参加更好"
"每次都这样"

Let me say this:

如果我可以
请让我爱自己
让我更用心更用情
用全部的感情
唱情歌给你

可是我不可以
我不能爱自己
谁让我没有心没有情
没有一点感觉
流眼泪给自己

Friends, are there to support you or drag you? What is called "support"? Is it just say "you can do it?" Is it just "jiayou?" If it's so easy, I would have all of you supported since I have been "jiayou-ing" everybody here.

-自我反省-

Acknowledged my existence at
12:07 AM