Jeffirean Stories
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Everythings seems to have piled up by this week. What have I accomplished? So many things left to do, and it's not a matter of ticking it off one by one, it's a list that adds itself as you check one off. I had lost sight of what I need to do, have to do, and want to do...
I regret the amount of time I have wasted in the holidays, and the hours spent trying to wake up early, only to succumb to my indulgence in the other realm. A dreamy realm, where absurdities can occur, stories unfold in a haphazard manner and life a standstill. But I know, it is where I am trying to hide. Every moment I get out of the bed, someone stands there to hound me, "this is not done yet!", "that is still outstanding.", "why is this not completed yet?".
The trouble with me is that I tend to be a procrastinator, "the time is not up yet", "I still have some hours"... yeah, this is me. It is just not so me to be prepared so early unless it is something really important or exciting. I tend to view many things as a chore, and that makes me feel not like doing it until the very last minute. And Murphy's Law usually applies when you do things at the 11th hour! It then complicates your original intention and now you try to plaster all over it either with some ingenious methods or simply with an outright plea for more time. As this rolls on and on, people get fed up with you, views you as terribly inefficient and a totally lousy worker. They do not really try to understand why you are like that nor they would bother to help devise plans to help you reduce such potential problems. Most people only want results, and they want it fast. They want it fast so that they can keep it on their spaces with more time to spare. They can then either do it real fast, and hammer you saying that you are really slow. Or they would take their own sweet time and blame you for being slow. You become the carrier of the wok, you become the turtle.
And it's your fault if you realise so.
As a matter of fact, here I have a theory devised to help explain why some people are so carefree and easy-going, while some others are always rushing here and there. It can be summarised into this function:
Busyness = the amount of links you have to the world x the closeness of the links x your ability x your propensity to procrastinate
Amount of links: to find a rough gauge you should check your email and handphone contact book, your friendster list, your MSN list and probably also the number of relatives, the number of places you go to, etc.
Closeness of the links: If you are directly involved with everyone, put it as a % where 100% means you have a direct influence on the person's life through your decisions
Your ability: If there's a way to quantify ability like in RPG games, you would know where you stand. Generally the more ability you have, the more busy you would be.
Propensity to procrastinate: This is a log function where there are two possibilites for people those who procrastinates alot and become very busy eventually, trying to clear backlog all the time or those who become gradually free because everyone is sick of looking to you to do something.
So do a check and see where you stand! And you would know where I stand too...
ARGH..
On another note, here are some announcements:
a. All the best to my army/football buddy Chris' operation... hope he recovers soon.
b. May the person who splashed paint on my door become a painter in the future and dies of chemical fumes gradually or even falls off whichever place he/she is painting.
c. Anyone knows why are the winds so chilly these days?
d. Hope that I will end this blog now and go start writing my part for a report due next week... =x
SIGHZ
Jeffire
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Actually, I'm not too sure when will this 8-day blogging cycle stop but it just seem so coincidental that I find it a good time to blog now... haha. Some interesting stuff to write.... some apology... some warning to all... have a good time reading this if you are taking a break off your research or textbooks.. =)
lemme recall a funny dream two days ago i had. i only remember a few scenes... like i was living with the following people, my 7sea brother jinki, naruto, an old man who is an actor from mediacorp (dun recall his name nor the show he acted in) and i think the setting was more of a double storey house.. so in my mind in that dream we were staying together in the same house but i do not have a logical reason.
one fine day i was watching tv, and this naruto suddenly got busy fighting a monster, and he used rasengan to finish the monster off, it was kinda noisy (as he is always noisy) and i mentioned why it was so noisy to jinki. then suddenly as i looked at him close up, i realised he turned sick, with greenish eyelids and eyerings.. so i tried to touch him but my hands just flew through him. so i was shocked, but he said actually it's his ghost that is living with me. suddenly i saw an old man and he says that actually they are worried about me, especially my brother, and so they have come to stay with me, so i was not to be afraid of them. yeah, i felt kinda greatful at that moment but soon i woke up...
as i tried to analyse why i had this dream (as i usually do so after every weird dream, esp when it's got something to do with the ppl ard me), i realised i forgot about jinki's birthday! hahaha. oh man, and it was like it's already 21st Jan! 9 days past his birthday!!! oh dotz, here i am, writing a public apology for forgetting the brother whom i respect the most for his values in life and towards people. hahhahaha. he has yet to get wind of this dream because i decided to pen it down here for him to read... and i gather from my sources that clarissa's birthday is upcoming too so perhaps i would try to arrange something for both jan babies.. haha. but please accept my apologies, brother, as you read this... man, i'm really very very very forgetful and worse, BO SIM (no heart). whatever happened to the respect i had for my dear brother.... sigh.
other stuff to talk about... i had my 2nd dragonboat training the day before, everything went better this time but i still couldn't do all the pushups required because my arms were too ached to push anymore. i think it's because i'm too heavy and the muscles there need to grow more in order to sustain pushing my weight up. my 4000g target for the month remains to be seen.... totally no progress! lol. but i think i'm growing stronger by the day and perhaps by the time 2007 ends i should be a proper dragonboater that looks and works like one.. haha.
and recently, a friend of mine was robbed around 10pm at night while she was walking back home, at her void deck. she was also injured by them (3 of them). here please let me sound a serious warning to all, please please please be alert, dun get cornered (like being in a lift with strangers) and always keep your eyes open for suspicious people (eg a shadow and footsounds keep following you). please walk in areas of bright light, and hopefully you have some folks with you that may deter these idiots. and last of all, perhaps if possible, carry with you some defense item such as an alarm, spray (some friends recommend insecticide, but i think oil spray like wd40 is less digusting cos i dun like the insecticide label). but most importantly is to stay alert and to be not cornered... may all of you be safe and sound always and may my friend recover well from the unfortunate incident...
on a good note, i've been selected for my club's school performance to sing some jeff chang songs.. hahaha. (as usual) anyway, it will be on 8th Mar at SMU Big Steps (near School of Information Systems) and it should be around lunch time... i'm not too sure yet. hope i won't lose face or make a bad job out of it.... haha.
and finally, just to really say to all of you... time flies! jan is coming to an end, and things are hotting up! (especially schoolwork) hope all of you do take the workload in stride, may all of you stay healthy, safe and cute... and work hard!
mixed feelings
jeffire
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Seems like this blog is becoming a "8 Days every week" thingy. It was unintentional! As time is really a premium now, due to a new persistent problem of mine, let's keep it easy for your eyes.. haha.
Yesterday, finally there was a chance for me to join a new sports club in SMU and that's SMU Dragonboat! The training was real tough, and I nearly fainted halfway, ended up lying about 1 minute on the toilet floor. But it just shows that I am terribly unfit. The killer was the circuit training! Though different from the circuit training in PE in secondary school, the result was still same: I was rendered breathless for a cool 20minutes. Anyway, I will certainly continue the training so as to improve my fitness and also I hope that will help me in other sports such as yoga, football, badminton, etc. I will also hope to represent the team in future competitions! But that means I have to work really hard because many of them are really very strong and fit (for some, despite their size, they could still complete the circuit training relatively unharmed!)
On Saturday, a new initiative brought up by me titled Sporting Weekly finally began with 4 of the Rabbit Family having a nice badminton time at Kebun Baru CC. Hope to have more of the family joining in, which in turn should help everyone improve their fitness slowly. The next Sporting Weekly event though is gonna be less of an workout but more like a brain workout.. haha. Stay tuned!
I had finally settled for 4.5 modules, dropping the history module from my bidded 5.5 modules because of my problem (which I mentioned earlier) and that I had already missed 2 classes, thereby losing out in a whole lot of stuff. I will have to forfeit the e$ used, but I still have more than e$150, so should be able to last me through the final two terms. This term seems to have a theme, centering around leadership and management. And that's another reason for dropping the history module... yah. Overall these modules seem to have plenty of readings and readings... something I'm not really accustomed to despite preparing very much throughout the holidays. Oh well, just let do and live with it.
Finally, let's talk about that problem I am having. It's actually a bad habit, which I cultivated in the holidays... reading before bedtime. I suppose if you read a few pages it would be good but usually by the time I log off MSN, it's already 1+am, then I would read and furiously read stuff, sometimes up till 4am! And the bad thing is that I would be pretty much awake around 7+am, but my brain says let's sleep some more and boom! By the time I wake up again, half the day has gone (12nn) and a bite, a washup, and time to go to school. This is also the CHIEF reason why I dropped the history module, it's an 830am class on Monday!
Oh well, time to rethink some strategies on how to sleep less, and earlier, because usually the most productive parts of my day are the morning hours, and based on that notion, I have already designated those hours to do important stuff in my weekly timetable... SIGH SIGH SIGH.. how can I ever be successful in executing what I planned!?
*Konks himself*
Jeffire
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Monday, January 08, 2007
No doubt the trains and buses are brimming with life again, mostly from uniform-looking trolls who seek to consume every book and paper they encounter. The school term starts today with a bang, yes, a dent in my confidence with the 12 o clock news stating that I failed in my bidding game for some subjects, leaving with only 4 mods instead of the envisioned 5.5. Despite so, I still have 2 years worth of e-dollars existing in the system and probably that should be adequate firepower to make this term another climb for me on the Mountain of GPA. 1.5hrs more to the start of the ascent...
Recent observations from the bathroom scale on my bed states an upward trend in a vector quantity known as "weight". It has been discovered that this quantity stands uncorrelated with other measurements such as "wealth" and "health" and that, somehow it seems to be inversely proportionate to these measurements up to a certain point. To counter the unfavourable trend, several measures have been drawn up:
a. Individual exercise sessions - more of such sessions namely yoga, swimming and running sessions have been drawn up in my personal timetable.
b. group exercise sessions - one or two days were designated group exercise sessions days encompassing activities such as badminton, cycling and possibly other recreational activities.
Hopefully these countermeasures serve their purpose which has been ensloganed into
"4000g is the key to happiness in January".
Perhaps it seems slightly overboard, but setting lofty aims is a great manner to push oneself. If you acheived the aim, you would be really happy, but if you didn't but tried hard enough, some degree of achievement would be good consolation as well.
Unfortunately the day started with an overdose of medication we term as "sleep" and with the influx of viruses such as "work", "readings" and probably others unidentified as of yet, the subject, aka, yours truly (hey, please don't take it literally for I still own myself), is most probably sick with a symptom call "guilt", "regret" and "helplessness". What sort of medicine would be useful in this case?
Perhaps "encouragement", "criticism" would be some good medication, though it remains to be seen.
Well, maybe you may find the style of writing slightly different from before, this is because of a major influence by a lunch inclusive of "Harvard Business Reviews" and "KMPG Audit Report for NKF". Certainly, yours truly has been badly affected by such a lousy lunch.
I hate readings!
Bah
Jeffire
PS: For comforts, yours truly had a Ferrero Rocher and some shopping on Yahoo Auctions for a pair of binoculars... lol! =p
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