Jeffirean Stories
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Long time no see!
It's been only a few days but it seems like weeks have passed..
Friday was a great day as I met up with Yingzie, Charles, Joyce for KTV! If not for Weijian's pang-sehing, it would have been a better day! Haha. It was super embarrasing as I couldn't recognise Yingzie and walked past her blatantly...OOPS. Actually, I really did not see her (nor recognise her, frankly) because she has become so pretty and I have a fear of looking at pretty girls...(doesn't that make me a great boyfriend?) On the sidebar you see that I like looking at cute people, and yeah, cute, but not pretty. Get it? Anyway, we celebrated Charles' birthday with a cake and a simple present for Charles, during his favourite pastime - KTV. I guess that was the best I could give Charles for his grand 'o' 23. LOL. When are you getting married, by the way? The big surprise was Charles selected only 1 F4 related song, and was invited to sing another by Yingzie, which he couldn't as he didn't know the songs. I guess the first to hear me sing was Joyce then. Joyce, am I a good or bad singer? Haha. Too bad Joyce didn't get to hear me sing Jeff Chang songs... I get high singing his songs, which I rarely pick in KTVs because I think most people get a turn off hearing his songs. I don't know why, it's either they are jealous, or they just don't like it. Most people get turned off by me because I can sing like a girl too! Do you believe that? Haha. Whatever the case is, I like singing, and if you like singing too, let's sing together! I like singing duets particularly and have been trying to find a great partner. In all case, probably the best singing partner for me now is my brother! We can sing Power Station songs pretty well!
Enough for blowing the cow..
Saturday night marked a gathering for the 7seas again, in which I didn't ask Kenneth at all. Well, I understand that he needs plenty of rest for his sunday classes, so there isn't any point asking him to come out for supper and watching soccer at 11pm at night. However, we did enjoy ourselves while I drove everyone around and had a good time updating each other about girls and girlfriends. Man, the brothers don't believe that I sit alone in class. For most of my classes, I sit alone because I need to sit in front to see the board and the slides but everyone else fears sitting in front. I also mentioned that I am infamous for falling asleep and keeping a special pose while doing that...despite sitting in front! Haha. Anyway, it looks like everyone has a potential target or has found a girl while poor souls like Kevin, Kenneth and me have so many obstacles in life...Kevin has to finish his liability with the armed forces before he can meet more girls, Kenneth...he is so occupied in the academic race...guess he isn't interested in finding love. And me, for me, I am taking the passive way because of my principles. It doesn't matter much to me anyway, although I may seem to be pathetic to you. I don't mind being labelled pathetic because I am indeed pathetic. Anyway, good luck to all the brothers and friends out there. If you found the One for you, do keep it going. I am looking forward to receiving the red invitation to your wedding dinner, your baby's first month.. etc. For the chaps, if you want me to help, I will be glad to help if I can and am of help to you! Hee. And of course for those who have yet to find the One, don't worry! Fate has arranged for you to find one. Just remember this if one day you think fate has forgotten about your happiness...
"Fate is the door to the future. Initiative is the key, patience is the lock. I am the doorboy..." - Jeffire, Feb 2005
It seems like nobody can decipher the real meaning of this quote. Nevertheless, you can apply it to yourself and I am sure it will help, if your mind and heart isn't narrow. Narrowminded people or people who never think hard and long will never understand the truth behind the quote.
The holiday has begun with a bang with the grand finish to the Creative Thinking module. My individual project was voted 3rd most popular in class! Besides that, my group project was very well received and the professor said we could even go copyright the idea with a good and detailed plan! Heh. I like to thank my group people for their great thinking minds and effort. Weijian, Aaron, Xiaoxiang, Eunice, and Wei Yee, you guys were great!
After the project presentation and a BGS meeting which ended in my proposal being rejected after an one hour ordeal of explaining to people who cannot focus, I was at my dad's workshop. It so occurred to me that some of you must have never or rarely seen your father at work. Looking at my father work makes me think about the future. Will he be working so hard then, or will he be able to stay at home and enjoy life, or will he be enjoying life as a boss in a shop or office or a stall? I think quite similar to my father, and my conclusion is that he will not want to idle at home even if he cannot do this job of spray painting anymore. I will like him to be the boss of some shop or stall, so that he can enjoy the flexibility to work or not, get an income through his own efforts and also stay happy. I am not sure what kind of dreams he has, but I am sure he will like my arrangement for him. He's only very young, 44, but I am already thinking of the future. I am sure if he thinks that he doesn't harbour any dreams anymore at this age, he will definitely be happy sharing my dream of owning a business, which is a means of a start for my ultimate dream of afforesting the deserts.
Friday is shopping day for Jeffire! I wonder who should I ask along....haha. Too bad I'm not free on the weekends, because most people will be free on weekends instead...
Okie, that's all for today and I hope you enjoyed living in my world for that 5mins.
Regards
Jeffire
Acknowledged my existence at
8:42 PM
Thursday, February 17, 2005
The weather is bloody hot!
Everytime there is hot weather, it just spurs me on that I have a dream to achieve. Heard on the news that some law has been put in place to control the carbon dioxide emissions level...oh well, i would rather they put more money into restoring forests and natural habitats.
Unfortunately, on this hot day I fell sick. Luckily I'm quite a healthy guy, so it wasn't like I was dying or what. A 4hr undisturbed sleep, 2 baths, 4 slices of bread, 2 small cups of coffee, a huge glass of milo, half a Biz Law lesson and a short CT meeting sums up the entire day I felt sick. Phew. I hope I will be back to normal state tomorrow as I do miss eating proper meals man...
The Lovers' Concerto on Tue saw a great turnout. The team I predicted to win didn't get any prize at all(Faye Wong of SMU), and the winning team was really great. I am a great talent spotter! My OG mate, Celine and her pal got 2nd! Hahaha. Yicui and Marcus got into the finals too but their performance didn't warrant a prize. Never mind! At least they got into the finals which I didn't get in! Haha. Claps for all the winners and participants.
My CT presentation on Mon was a surprising success. I came out with the idea a month ago, got into action only one night before the presentation, and the product was finished in 2hrs of experimenting. To think that it was so well received...haha. I hope I can continue bring more creative ideas in so that I can quickly begin my business pursuits.
My brother surprisingly went to read (oh man, the sky must have wanting to fall) Rich Dad Poor Dad and has asked me how should we invest and how should we get rich without having money on our hands. I do understand how we should go about doing it, but I have no idea how I CAN do it, given the ridiculous life I'm living now. Nonetheless, my brother has always been very very intelligent. I am sure he will come out with something inspirational soon. I know we can do it.
There is a KTV session coming up on Fri with Charles, Joyce and SY. It's like a commenters' gathering! I think somehow the fifth person should be one of those who leave comments too..but who? I had tried asking a few girls but they had projects and mid terms and stuff...so I guess I need to scroll through to see what fate has brought me to.
Okie, lastly like to thank Yenmei for giving a present of V Day! Haha. She kept saying 'Happy Friendship Day'... so don't get the wrong idea!!! Fate hasn't told me who is the one for me... time will tell.
That's all for the updates on life. I must thank all of those who have been reading my blog and contributing despite being so busy. Good luck to all of those doing projects and mid-terms, working, or just studying. Ganbatte ne~~ We all will achieve what we want if we try hard. Be happy trying your best. Be happy that we are all together trying our best. We are together, walking the long road to the future~
I will be around for you, if you care to stop and look at me.
Coolest Wishes (dun forget the weather is hot)
Jeffire
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12:43 AM
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
14 Feb 2005 - Valentine's Day. Huh? What?
I have come to realised that love makes one selfish, self-centred.
How did I come to this conclusion?
Firstly, let's hear it from the view of a married couple.
Wife: "Hubby, what are we going to do tonight?"
Husband: "A hot date, a romantic dinner, and a sweet loving night at the hotel"
Evidence-> Read the papers and you should know.
Secondly, let's hear it from the view of a attached couple.
Boyfriend: "Dear, hope you like this present!"
Girlfriend: "Darling....oh you are sooo sweet!" *Hugs and kisses*
Evidence-> Go ask your friends and you should know.
Thirdly, let's hear it from a group of singles.
Single man: "I am drinking alone on this day...arghhhhhhhh!"
Single woman: "When will I receive flowers from him?"
Single old man: "I should go look for a foreign wife"
Single old woman: "I think these young chaps are cute, maybe I should..."
Evidence-> SDU + Retail therapy + matchmaking agencies + scandalous gigolos and rich old women.
Lastly, let's hear it from Jeffire.
Jeffire: "What the hell, has the whole world forgotten about the rest of the world?"
Evidence-> This blog.
The conclusion for today is that regardless of having love or not, normal people are selfish and self-centred. The end.
Regrettably,
Jeffire
*My salutations to all those who made an effort to connect to the rest of the world, and to those still working hard to help the lives of others on this day which we call Valentine's Day. They are the ones full of love~
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1:26 AM
Friday, February 11, 2005
CNY is officially over! (In Singapore, that is)
Nowadays I no longer look forward to getting more red packets le. I am more interested in getting people to know me better, and of course, it is as interesting to know about other people, play with the kids, and talk to the old folks. Most of them can differentiate me and my brother now, and can call me by name. My only elder cousin added me to her MSN! She's still the Beyond fan as ever, a rare antique. Haha.
Day 1
Ate plenty of stuff, but not as much as I wanted to. Especially pineapple tarts, bbq sliced pork, etc...haiz. Din get to eat much of those. I was the chauffeur for both days, driving everyone to and fro. At my 4th grandaunt's place, I did a 3point direction change and when I turned at the 3rd turn, the van got stuck at the 5cm kerb of the ramp beside the parking lot for the disabled. No matter how I stepped the van won't move. After my dad came down (it was already 3odd am), then we realised that the wheel couldn't touch the floor, that's why the van couldn't move. A split second of thinking and we realised that the answer to solve it was to put something under the wheel so that the wheel could move on that something. Phew, it worked and we got home at 4am.
Apart from that I had 3 hours at Kenneth's place, singing KTV with him and his aunt. Hahaha. His mum got a very nice voice! I enjoyed myself very much as they hear me sing a marathon of Jeff Chang songs...oh well, I rarely practise those songs nowadays! Heh. Junhao sings like Jacky Wu...haha, but he can sing quite well these days...haha. More courage to sing than before le.
Day 2
Had a great day playing some high level mahjong with my uncles when my mother decided to switch with me for ktv with mahjong. To win, you needed 5 doubles and only winning brings you cash. Whatever else you do, you don't win any cent at all. I managed to defend quite well, won 2 games and lost one, resulting in a net win of $14 dollars. By the way, the game was priced at $3 and $6 for 'zi mo' (win by a drawn tile at your turn). It was very exciting because everyone will be trying to make big combinations and the defending is very high level. Haha. I managed to win when i outsmarted my uncle and won when he decided to change his 'calling' card (the tile which enables you a chance to win) which was his 'colour'! Haha. The second win was pretty spectacular too, where I actually had only 4 double and was waiting for the 'red centre' to win. I had a pair of 'red centres' and 'one balls' but 4 doubles only if I won by the latter tile. Fortunately, I managed to draw that one last tile which you call it 'lao yue' (fishing the moon) and won because 'fishing the moon' earns you an extra double! Hahaha. I also did some of my MA homework which I owe the professor, but I couldn't finish it because I had no idea how to move on from some of the steps... save me!!!
In all, it wasn't really an enjoyable new year because for each minute passing, I fear for the worst for the presentation and report submission on Mon. Add to that I have school tomorrow and 10hr shift work on both weekend days! Looks like I'm in deep trouble...
Oh well, I am sure I can solve them so don't worry guys!
Festive greetings
Jeffire
Acknowledged my existence at
1:37 AM
Monday, February 07, 2005
People say Chinese New Year is coming...
Yet today I heard a bad news that my neighbour, a 3-generation family living together, had their grandfather passed away at Sembawang Park. Apparently, my father remarked that he committed suicide...or perhaps due to depression. Last Sunday he was locked up at home by my neighbour, and then he went missing for two days, and today the wake is being held at my void deck now.
I feel real damn sad...I mean he was a very nice elderly who was very healthy. Although he was 77 (last year), he was still working as a piano repairman. That long chat with him last year...remains so fresh in my mind. He asked me to guess his age and I guessed 65, but I got it wrong so he told me 77. Then he told us about how life was so hard then, and even now, at such an age, he still have to work to help to contribute to the family upkeep.
However I had seen my neighbours and the kids...the father and mother seem to be quite well-to-do...the children looked much better dressed than us usually...their home was nicer than ours...haiz.
I feel sad for not being able to make myself available to speak to the old uncle more often...like he was always out before me, and when I got back, he's already at home resting. Nowadays neighbours don't interact as much as before...so it's weird if I were to go over just to chit chat with the elderly...
Therefore, now I shall make it a point to communicate more with the elderly i know in my neighbourhood. There should be nothing to lose by speaking to them. I am so ashamed of my lack of courage..
Chinese New Year...every year I lose hours and hours of sleep because of the 2 days. Cleaning...visiting people...buying goodies...what's the point if I'm not happy?
Nonetheless, I actually had a good day before my dad told me about the old uncle during dinner. Our audition for the Duet Competition didn't glitch much except for a missing last sentence by me (though should be skillfully faked through with a rousing finish) despite only 50 mins of practice between Fern and me. Hahaha. Fern is indeed a great singer, like Stefanie Sun of SMU!
Other than singing, nothing else went right. Now I understand why everyone is flying out during this time...but I can't. So I hope I can spend the 2 days fruitfully and take a good break before embarking on the last charge for the term. I have yet to give more than 50% of my best! Slacker me!
That's why I said someone should come forward to give me a slap...Or someone can just tell me that it's worth my time to work hard for his/her sake. I have no desire to work hard for myself at this depressing juncture...
I shall find some outlet to relax...probably go sing some more...miss the old uncle, miss the old folk of my family...hope to see them during CNY then.
Hope you enjoy a fruitful 2 day break.
If only you heard..
Jeffire
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11:33 PM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
ZzZzzZ..
Sleep is a rare commodity now. The price of sleep is so steep that it is now a premium product.
Projects are piling in and the mid-terms! They are like small little knives that constantly poke you at your limbs...you are stuck in the bloody mess, with nobody helping you to relieve the pain by driving the knife through your heart. Everyone knows things are getting more and more complex, but they still have simplistic outlooks for themselves...geez. If the corporate world was so relaxed, we wouldn't have so many scandals to look through today.
One major time-sapping activity is preparation for Chinese New Year. Every year I have to be dragged by my parents to buy clothes. My mother, on one hand she tells me to cut expenses because my dad's salary and bonus have been cut, and we are moving house next year which will require funds; and on the other hand, she says we should buy good looking clothes, new clothes for a start to the new year. I cannot catch any sense of what she means, but I know we definitely have to cut expenses and hence the reluctance to buy clothes.
Nonetheless, till now I have new clothes given to me by Kevin and Jinki: a pair of FOX Men jeans and a red long sleeved t-shirt of the same brand), one business shirt and pants, and a 77th Street bracelet. I am indeed fortunate to have gotten these, because I am sure there are many out there who will have to make do with the old stuff...hope they find some happiness despite not having what most of us have...
I was at the John Little warehouse sale just now at Singapore Expo. They had a great sale and the top items I wanted to get are things that you may find amusing:
a. underwear
b. bedsheets
And that's about all! I always liked to go John Little to purchase underwear...geez. I like white or red briefs. (I like red and white colours for apparel)
I am still wondering how Dan is doing at the moment...went to Tampines Sports Hall after work to try my luck but he was not there...
My last thoughts...
What will I be, when one day, I decide to be no longer myself? Will I be an evil person, who only cares about fulfilling desires? Or will I be a idiot who acts as though nothing has happened and will happen - a person with only a mind of a self-centred universe? If I decide to be some other personality, what will I lose?
I ponder...and my answer is
All people wear a mask to hide their true-selves. The true personality of a person will be revealed when life and death confront him straight in the face. I will definitely give up life if it means others can be saved. I am sure it hurts many others, but I am also sure the same people who are to be hurt can understand why I took the decision so. Personally, I think there is nothing to cling on to in my life. I have nobody who so much so desires my presence at all available opportunites, and therefore, I see no reason for my existence anyway. But I will regret that I have so many dreams I had yet to TRY MY BEST for...
As for what will I become, I suppose I will become a totally different person. One that doesn't give a damn for others' sake. One that has no idea of others' pain. One that rejects the notion of giving for receiving. It's not evil, but it's just an overdose of self-gratification. Desires are indeed dangerous...
Now, what I hope to get in life in the short term are the following:
a. Improvement (self or others')
b. Sincere recognition for effort and intelligence
c. Keen observation for hints that will lead to hidden answers
d. Sincere smiles
e. A chance to sit back to back with a loved one and feel his/her heartbeat
f. A long long hug
g. A slap on my face
h. Undisturbed sleep, nobody to determine what time I wake up.
i. A chance to talk to those who have fell down/paused indefinitely/drifted away from me recently on the road of life...
I now declare that I am mentally unsound temporarily...confused.
Do you care?
Jeffire
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3:01 AM