砂漠のJeffire

Jeffirean Stories

Sunday, February 11, 2007

I am not sure how should I start the post, but here i quote XM's words:

"It is impt to have the ability to make urself happy..

Dun wanna rely on anyone for that nor do i wan to give anyone the power to make me v happy or unhappy anymore"

Reflecting on this, I ask myself am I happy or unhappy? I really don't know. Things like going for dragonboat training make me extremely unhappy, but I still think it will make me happy in the future. Mad right? Some things make me extremely unhappy, but I can still think it will make me happy in the future. Am I an idiot or what? Or an optimistic pig? I guess so. Every failure that does not kill you makes you stronger. And when you are stronger, you will find it easier to receive happiness (see I used the word "receive"). Yet, it is an irony that you must be unhappy first to be happy. Funny right?

At times, I wonder, why do we work so hard? Do we want that much $$ or do we just like getting better and better in what we like to do? I agree for the latter. I will work hard if it means I can become more handsome =p (lol) but it is the process of working hard that makes things complicated, difficult to grasp, painful to conquer.

One day when I look back at my life, I will still ask myself "why do we make stupid decisions all the time?" The benefit of hindsight creates regretfulness or resent.

I wish I am not so stupid.

Looking ahead
Jeffire

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