砂漠のJeffire

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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Everythings seems to have piled up by this week. What have I accomplished? So many things left to do, and it's not a matter of ticking it off one by one, it's a list that adds itself as you check one off. I had lost sight of what I need to do, have to do, and want to do...

I regret the amount of time I have wasted in the holidays, and the hours spent trying to wake up early, only to succumb to my indulgence in the other realm. A dreamy realm, where absurdities can occur, stories unfold in a haphazard manner and life a standstill. But I know, it is where I am trying to hide. Every moment I get out of the bed, someone stands there to hound me, "this is not done yet!", "that is still outstanding.", "why is this not completed yet?".

The trouble with me is that I tend to be a procrastinator, "the time is not up yet", "I still have some hours"... yeah, this is me. It is just not so me to be prepared so early unless it is something really important or exciting. I tend to view many things as a chore, and that makes me feel not like doing it until the very last minute. And Murphy's Law usually applies when you do things at the 11th hour! It then complicates your original intention and now you try to plaster all over it either with some ingenious methods or simply with an outright plea for more time. As this rolls on and on, people get fed up with you, views you as terribly inefficient and a totally lousy worker. They do not really try to understand why you are like that nor they would bother to help devise plans to help you reduce such potential problems. Most people only want results, and they want it fast. They want it fast so that they can keep it on their spaces with more time to spare. They can then either do it real fast, and hammer you saying that you are really slow. Or they would take their own sweet time and blame you for being slow. You become the carrier of the wok, you become the turtle.

And it's your fault if you realise so.

As a matter of fact, here I have a theory devised to help explain why some people are so carefree and easy-going, while some others are always rushing here and there. It can be summarised into this function:

Busyness = the amount of links you have to the world x the closeness of the links x your ability x your propensity to procrastinate

Amount of links: to find a rough gauge you should check your email and handphone contact book, your friendster list, your MSN list and probably also the number of relatives, the number of places you go to, etc.

Closeness of the links: If you are directly involved with everyone, put it as a % where 100% means you have a direct influence on the person's life through your decisions

Your ability: If there's a way to quantify ability like in RPG games, you would know where you stand. Generally the more ability you have, the more busy you would be.

Propensity to procrastinate: This is a log function where there are two possibilites for people those who procrastinates alot and become very busy eventually, trying to clear backlog all the time or those who become gradually free because everyone is sick of looking to you to do something.

So do a check and see where you stand! And you would know where I stand too...

ARGH..

On another note, here are some announcements:

a. All the best to my army/football buddy Chris' operation... hope he recovers soon.
b. May the person who splashed paint on my door become a painter in the future and dies of chemical fumes gradually or even falls off whichever place he/she is painting.
c. Anyone knows why are the winds so chilly these days?
d. Hope that I will end this blog now and go start writing my part for a report due next week... =x

SIGHZ
Jeffire

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