砂漠のJeffire

Jeffirean Stories

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Recently I watched Superman's trailer and yes, the famous line he said

'It's not easy being me...' (i cannot remember the rest of it, too lazy to go find the song lyrics either =p)

Following Pika's comments, I guess it is difficult to be the real you because expectations and impressions may not fit the world that we are now operating in. (note the word 'operating')

Everyone has told me at some point, 'Just be yourself, you will find someone that will appreciate you'. Indeed, I do agree so, yet it is so exasperating at times to find that most people do not appreciate so. Eventually, how do we really know which side of us is the true side?

There is a chinese saying which translates to 'crises reveal the true face of a person'. Certainly I do not fancy facing any crisis at any time of my life, but if it does bring out the true me, it may be worth a try!

Yet I will like to emphasise that I have always been myself though to some extent, you not believe so because your impression of me was formed during the earlier times we got to know each other. And my dearest friends will know that my voracious appetitie of seeking improvement has always put me on the wheel of evolution.

Yes, I shall again embark on the evolution cycle to become one again better. That is what I intend to be. Here I have the targets for the evolution cycle:

a. To talk less and listen more
b. To read slowly and understand faster
c. To be more clear headed and organised
d. To be more analytical, much more than now. I shall not stop at the cost/benefit level.
e. To be COURAGEOUS

Finally, to clear up the previous mess I have caused. Please allow me to apologise to Ms E and all parties involved. Being nice is not a problem to me, because I have learnt not to expect anything in return for being nice. It is time to discard my Mirror Attitude and to go on to become what you may call 'Saint Jeffire'! (lol)

Please provide me with all the support you guys can muster for me. Appreciate every drop of it. Thank you very much...

Becoming Better
Jeffire

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