砂漠のJeffire

Jeffirean Stories

Friday, April 08, 2005

Although I was locked up at home by my mum's taking my keys mistakenly, I managed to tidy my room and the fridge. I sorted all my notes for this term and threw out all those of the previous. Looking at my Management Accounting test papers, I just felt that it must have been an excuse when I said I'm in university for the experience. It is certainly unfair to myself that I did not put in effort for the things I am responsible to do well in. As I looked at the stack of papers, I can only REGRET all the past time I had wasted. I could have done much better if I just put in a little bit more effort. Just that little bit, I could have been smiling at a much fulfilling term. Lots of good and bad experience. Lots of fun and suffering.

This term has been a steep learning curve. Although I managed to scale it in the end, others don't wait for me. The results are largely set because our exams take up only 40% of the final term...50% at most for some subjects. That means we cannot slack at any time of the term until it ends.

Nonetheless, it was a good learning experience and I am certain it will be very helpful to my next 6 terms in SMU.

Kevin reminded me that I was suppose to plan the trip and invite my SMU friends. Hmm...Charmaine asked me to plan an OG outing too. I guess it's time for some event organisation~

Yuting asked me if I could help to spearhead a voluntary project. I wonder what did I do to make her think that I could do that? Now I'm still thinking what I should do, take it on or reject her? I also promised MIC to be their sponsorship manager, and SCS, I will remain as the Operations Officer... looks like I will still be busy with CCAs in the holidays....I still need to do some secretarial work for the table tennis club! Oh man...looks like I will be pretty occupied in the holidays.

After slacking one whole morning and afternoon, I realised that I'm destined to slog. It's an innate ability to work constantly and think constantly for the future, for the good of the organisation or for the good of the people around me. When I stop to take a long uninterrupted break, I don't really feel good about it. Hmm...I guess that's just me.

I really want to be a totally new Jeffire when the term restarts in the city campus. That will be my biggest aim throughout the whole holidays. With that, I know what I need to do.

Lastly, sometimes what people say of other people are just their impressions. I am glad that I decided to try my best to talk to people on MSN and get to know them better. I am also glad that my friends and I update each other often on our blogs so we can discuss difficult thoughts that may be not possible for discussion because either we are not that close friends in the real world, or we simple don't have the quality time to do so. With this I really have to thank the Internet and the computer.

Another world, another me, another you. Real and cyber personalities. How different people can be! I hope one day the real me is also the cyber me.

In good mood
Jeffire

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