砂漠のJeffire

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Friday, December 17, 2004

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I must have disappeared from the world for some days...blog not updated, offline on msn, email unread...blah blah. life sucks when a computer is down...it's worse when you are kinda shunned by the whole world...oh well..let it be.

rewinding the series of events...i can recall good and bad news. to be optimistic, let's talk about the good news.

Results. Okie, my results aren't anything worth being happy, but given the series of events over the term, i'm quite happy with it. GPA - 2.8, and it comes from Fin Acct (B+) Ldrship & Teambuilding (B), Intro Econs (B), Intro Stats (C), Comms (B-). I'm happy because I didn't put in much time studying for it and of course, I managed to climb back from fail to C for Stats is a miracle! Either I did okie for the final paper or the examiners 'give water'. Oh well, who cares. Term 1 is over and I look forward to getting one A soon for boosting morale. I think I want to gamble it on Finance the next term.

Parties. Kevin's and Stephanie's parties on 11 Dec were great! Met lotsa people, ate plenty of goodies. The mahjong session after Kev's celebration was pretty exciting. Very long never lose that much and made such a come back. Maybe 3 sided mahjong is like that. High risks, high odds and escalating excitment. Hope we can sit down for a four sided one soon. Oh well, happy birthday to all the dec people again! Heh. So many people to write birthday greetings too. luckily there is frienster to help. I hope kev likes his present of a polaroid camera(take pic cards that kind). haha.

LTB. Yeah! The final stage of LTB ended in a rush, but I think the old folks were pretty happy. Unfortunately I couldn't stay for the closing part as I had to return the van to my father. The bad part of it was the stupid roads....I got lost on the way to Esplanade (and was late too) and the return trip was filled with red lights. I hate red lights! However, the smiles of the old folk were really very warming...hmm...in contrast, my teammates never smiled at me..

Games. My bro bought a playable WE8 disc recently and I could rekindle my gaming instincts. Of course I realised my team wasn't really good so I am in the midst of rebuilding it. But this is really the only game I can sit down to play hours with.

Sports. The recent SMU table tennis IVP trial saw 5 new guys added to the team. The 2 Indians I have yet to see them play but hope I can beat them. The seniors are so good that we get trashed easily.. need to train more with the good players to up my standards. Nonetheless, due to the lack of talent, I was selected but most likely I won't be playing...hmm. I have been trying to get Dan to coach me (or practise with me) but he has been avoiding me like the plague.

This brings me to the bad news session.

Friends. I wonder why is it so hard to get people out for ktv, for meals or just simply chilling out. Man, nobody wants to hear me talk. Simply put, either everyone's stuck in their little circle, or everyone doesn't like me. Life sucks. What did I do to offend any of you? Just spit it out and I will apologise. If you want to avoid me, just say it and I will delete your contact, msn, email, phone no from my computer and handphone and brain. Alternatively, I can delete myself or you from this world, but that's another matter altogether.

Finances. I think I know why I din get an A for FA. I really can't plan my finances well enough. Luckily (or disastrously) it's Dec. I have a job on hand, and some accounts receivables, so hope it will tide me till Jan. Many people seem to forget that I live in a 3 rm flat and my family total income per capita is only about $500. It's either I dunno how to spend money or I'm really damn poor. that's all. damnit.

Life. One really shocking news was last wed Aloy messaged me about Gordon's mum. Argh...the first wake I've been to myself. It was a difficult moment. It was also difficult to open my mouth to say something to Gordon. I hope he is fine...Life is really full of surprises and shocking news...I hope we will all understand the meaning of treasure. I really treasure every person I like...friends, classmates, teammates, colleagues, family, brothers....they are all part of me. Without them, my life is just a blank piece of paper...

Soccer. Good news was Liverpool pulled through to the 2nd round of the Champs League. The bad news was that they lost 5pts in the league after that. Bah! Other teams I support, Monaco went through as well, and Deportivo is still churning out trash results as long as my idol Diego Tristan is still injured. Damn..

I have no more complaints for the time being. However I am still damn pissed off, frustrated, angry, depressed, irritated and soon to be on jef-fire mode. I pray for some cooling water to cool me off. If not soon some things will have to explode and I hope it's not your ego nor your pride.

Rolling Thunder
Jeffire

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