砂漠のJeffire

Jeffirean Stories

Monday, October 11, 2004

Time flies, it's already mid Oct! I see secondary school students having their exams now while probably the JC students too, are having their A level papers. For us, the university students, we have past the mid terms and another month plus we will be having a good break, a good rest at year end as we look towards the new year. Heh.

For me, it's been a peaceful month compared to the beginning of the school days (mostly due to the stupid fire), except the accident that happened to my computer. Being slightly famous as a IT guy, I'm also quite at loss for what has happened to my computer. I am not sure if I should bring it to the experts, and PAY them to get my computer back to work, or should I use the Ghost-to-Ghost-Hookup and seek help from friends who are really the experts. Heh. Oh well, preliminary results show a CPU failure due to over voltage, but then, I can't really confirm. I hope my hard disk is intact though, for there are many important links inside - yeah, to all the blogs of my beloved friends! I miss reading your blogs so much that I am starting to wonder if I am out of the world... Of course I can remember some of the blog addresses, especially if they come from blogspot.com, like my dear seven seas brothers'. Oh well, to think I am stuck in such a situation.

And I attribute it to being poor. In fact, I put 95% of the blame of my blunders and poor performance on being poor. Why? Nowadays, being rich makes you outstanding, and if you are outstanding, you can know more people and of course knowing more people helps in the Ghost-to-Ghost-Hookup system. Being rich allows you to get a laptop so that you can work on the go in school, and you won't be despised on in school due to your need to go and find a computer in school everyday to work on tasks. Being rich allows you to go out whenever you like, especially when your friends asks you to. Most people I know don't understand why I am so calculative, but when you are very poor, every cent counts. Being rich saves you time, when you are rushing, you can just hail a taxi and get to your place fast. Or even better, you can afford to drive to school. And girls will be happy to know you since you got a car. And last but not least, being rich means you can wear better clothes. Do you know that most people judge others on how they look? This is the damn bloody truth. Yet there are only a few weird ones, like me who judges others on how much they smile.

Eventually I guess it boils down to the character. But am I that bad as a person? Maybe some people only look on the surface. I read all 58 friendsters testimonials I have and generally I see that people tell me that they don't have good first impression of me. Yet as time goes by, they find that I'm one of the fun people to be with. I guess 9 weeks in school is not exactly enough for some people to understand me. I acknowledge that I have very quirky thinking and ideas, but it all boils down to being poor. Being poor makes me think of how to cut costs all the time, or when you cannot cut costs, you will think of how to maximise benefit. Yet I'm not really such a person. I think maximising group benefit is more important than maximising personal benefit, but most people are selfish, so they think otherwise. I think when you maximise group benefit, you needn't necessarily lose out, and the key here is to find the win-win situation. I don't mind losing anyway, because I think I have the capability to earn all the money I want in the future. Even if I don't manage to, there must be some experienced earned. I believe in giving and receiving, and not giving and taking. Taking is different from receiving. Receiving is passive, but justified by others' willingness to give. Taking is active, but I'm not sure if everyone is willing to let you take something from their life.

Money makes the world go round. One day, when I have more money to spend, I hope I can use it to make my dreams come true. I believe my dreams will come true because usually they do! Hahaha. I always have this sense of de ja vu for some situations because i believe i had dreamt of it before! And I like dreaming~~~ it's an out of the world experience that no money can buy. cos it's free! (see how much i can save, instead of watching movies? haha)

Share your dreams with others from time to time and see if you can find friends who pursue the same goals as you. They will be your good friends as you can work together to realise those dreams. This is why I always tend to talk about the future. Be positive and think of your future as the best it can get!

Feel free to share your dreams with me, no matter how ridiculous, how difficult it is, it is still a dream. Having dreams gives you hope. There's some economics term for hope as a 'free for all to take' thing, what's the term? Hahaha. So another example of a win-win, maximise group benefit situation.

Remember, no dream is ever stupid or ridiculous, work on it. Even if you can't realise it, you will still be happy working for it. That's it! Stay happy like me~ (even though I'm very poor...hahaha)

Regards
Jeffire

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