砂漠のJeffire

Jeffirean Stories

Friday, June 18, 2004

I guess today is one emotional day for me. Read carefully as I will admit here some of the mistakes I had made.

a. I lied to my 7seas brothers and sisters about passing my driving licence.

I had done my apology through SMS and I hope they won't take it to heart. I am putting it down here for all my friends to see so that they know I am serious about my apology and willing to admit. I pray that they will understand. I really pray so.

b. I put too much work for my understudy.

I certainly must apologise to Francis, my understudy, that over the half year he spent with me, I had not taught him well and given him too much work to do. I was annoying with my criticism. My uncaring attitude made his life worse as the work piled on with more and more projects coming on. I hope he will understand that I really hated the way things were done and therefore I wanted to avoid work as much as possible. Hope he will understand.

c. I criticise people too much.

During my secondary schooldays I was never well liked in school because of my mouth. I was sarcastic and never thought about others' feelings. I hope over the days I have improved on this. I hope you guys have forgotten about it.

d. I am not really a straight guy.

In secondary school, I had a crush on a guy in my class who sat beside me in secondary one. Some of my friends know this, some don't. Since then, I have always wondered if I do really like guys. Well, I still would like to have a girlfriend, but I wouldn't mind if I had a nice boyfriend as well.

e. I have tried to murder my friend.

My best friend in primary and secondary school might not be around today if I pushed him harder. On that faithful day that I lost his friendship, he threatened not to go to school by saying he would cross the road at once without stopping for cars if I continued dragging him to school. I was furious and then provoked him to try it by pushing him onto the road. I really regretted it throughout the whole year. Luckily he's still around and I've managed to see him smile to me on a memorable morning where we exchanged 'hi' for the first time in 2.5yrs.

These conclude that I ought to be sent to hell, which I think I should be. I hope you guys would understand more about me and help me to walk back on the right path. Although I need no counselling, I would appreciate it so much if you guys can always help to point out my faults (thanks to Francis for doing it once) in the future.

I pray that my friends will still be around for me as much as I will always try to be around for them.

Regrettably
Jeffire

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