砂漠のJeffire

Jeffirean Stories

Monday, March 22, 2004

Wow, one week has passed by since I last blogged. Haven been really online much, let alone write blogs.

I really got nothing to say. Maybe it's because I am quite tired at the moment. I was on duty yesterday and today the whole day was nerve wrecking, with so many things to be done and many of them uncompleted as yet. I wonder if I can survive this week unscathed?

Upcoming this weekend there are many activities. Firstly, on Fri there's a councilmate's birthday party. Won't be going for that one as I have been angered by this councilmate's incessant demands for a birthday present. The present will go, yes, but via post. On Saturday there's another birthday party too. This time of another councilmate, and this guy is much of a pal than the previous. Although we don't see eye to eye at times, I feel that this person is at least witty, nice, easy going and quite talented as well. Perhaps it's just a personality differences that cause us to differ from each others' way of thinking, or maybe it's just me who is over-sensitive. Nonetheless, the party I will have to dig my time to attend even though the chaps will be at my home this Sat for a last gathering for the year. By 'last' I mean (I know I repeated many times) my dear friend Chris will be departing to Taiwan for a year. Soon most of my pals are gonna clear leave and perhaps we may have less opportunities to get together due to different schedules. NSFs in the same unit largely have the same schedule, but of course ORD personnel have their own agenda and thus a different set of schedules. Fortunately, over the years I stayed here, I had established myself as a very organised person, which the chaps know. Therefore, it's always easy to organise things when they know how I go about organising it. Anyway, I will take 2-3hrs off from the gathering to attend the party and hope that someone will drive and perhaps send me back on the way..haha. Fat hope. How I wished I had passed the last test and maybe I could have just rented a car instead to drive myself to and fro.

These days I have been pondering about myself. Many things have not gone smoothly lately. I am unsure if it's my attitude or if it's the way I do things. How I wish there was someone there to correct me, to reprimand me, or to at least tell me where I am wrong. In the unit, most of the chaps give me too much respect. Luckily there's Aloy around, who has always been a consistent encouraging figure to me. I enjoy listening to his explanations even though sometimes I think otherwise. Of course different ideas benefits a discussion and this is what I like about him. Moreover his ideas are mostly quite logical, and many a times without him pointing out where I have thought wrong, I may have erred more and more. Another of this great character is Junkai, my 7sea brother. Having experienced and seen many things, he's always giving me great guidance. Well, maybe as time goes by, I will realise that many people have been giving me great ideas. It could be because I rarely care about what others say, and hence forgetting what ideas they have came out with. However I dare say I do listen, and I listen to every word closely. Maybe it's just sometimes I am preoccupied with my own ideas, my own thinking that I downplay others' inputs and exaggerate my own ideas' merits.

Hey, those reading the blog, don't get jealous if I didn't mention you here regarding this! I mean there's only so much I can write without boring you (haha, I know it's already quite long winded and boring). I do put most of you into my heart, with sincere gratitude!

Let's hope I can slowly change to a better person....

Regards
Jeffire

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