砂漠のJeffire

Jeffirean Stories

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

Firstly must tell the readers of my blog that I dun think and write but rather whatever comes to my mind I just write, and write until I think I have reported everything up...so I usually about my life and what I think abt other ppl and not my pesonal tots theories etc. So you may find it either interesting to read abt others' life or you may find it a complete turnoff cos it's just so methodological. Moreover my English isn't anywhere near the word 'good' so you know. But I dun care. I mean this is my blog and nobody is gonna mark it anyway.

I enjoy reading others' blogs, especially my friends' blogs. They help me understand them betta. Chanced upon my colleague and bunkmate's blog today. Ok do I have to say how I chanced upon it even though he writes it in the office sometimes? Ok ok. Chris said he wanted to buy Strike so I asked him to jio me down when he is going to buy. So in the end we got the strike and had dinner together. During dinner he told me about his computer so I offered to check it out for him. Went to his friend's home and took his harddisk back home. Fixed it up and tried to see what was inside. But first, we had to scan them first because I suspected a deleted file by some virus he picked up (although my first suspicion was a hardware failure). While waitin for the scan to complete, I took the chance to open my ICQ and introduced to him some of the guys he might not have on his ICQ. So first it was Wenhui cos he finally was caught by me going online. Hahaha. Then we talked about Sirong, Rensheng, Jason Lee, etc. Then Chris mentioned this 'Dynamix' word so I opened it up and checked the users details because I had taken a look at their various birthdays (those whom I just mentioned), then I just chanced upon his blog webby. I know he visits blogs in the office. I also know he writes them but he always kinda hide it when I am around, so I try not to see. Even when I use the internet in office, I also dun open those webbies he visits. Anyway with Chris around I couldn't concentrate on reading his blogs as they were littered with too many difficult words...(hey Chris gave up reading them you know) so after I settled his problem so I took the chance to read his blogs after my bro went to sleep. Ok. Took one whole hr to read and digest everything and realise how different a person he was on the blog and off the blog....I wonder if I did offend him before, but seriously I suspect I did due to one of the lines inside talking about someone thinking he was very knowledgeable etc......haha. Anyway I am a very sensitive person, so if someone criticises me I will try my best to overturn the criticism and prove the critic wrong. Of course, some things neva change and I wouldn't bother anyway.

After reading his blogs, it inspired me to think about life more and less about all the happenings in life. I never had a love life before. I mean I did infatuate before, well, who doesn't. However I have never dated before, I never held any girl's hand like in a date (of course I have touched a female before, for god's sake) so I dunno what's love and whatever. Whenever I am sad I would like to sing my way out....that's why I really like Jeff Chang's ballads...they are so damn sad....but of course some people will think that I like to make myself sad.....haha where got? I just like to imagine myself being lost in love , or perhaps being jilted...haha. I like singing all sorts of ballads cos it's somehow like acting, you can put yourself in the shoes of the singer or the composer, that's why I like sorrowful songs with all the deep lyrics....on the other hand, i like to balance myself with all the R n B type of music and they make me want to dance and groove....haha. Never visited a R n B pub before so never see how they really dance. Anyway while walking with Soo KS today back home, he asked me whether I wanted to find a good girl, get married someday but I told him I wanted to stay single. So he retored if I wanted to stay a virgin forever. I countered hinting that singles could go flirt around and I said with money you can have all the beautiful girls around. Of course I lied. I mean gettin married with someone you like is of course the best thing that can happen to you in your life. However I have never found that 'someone'. All the girls whom I have liked before seem to be attached now. Hahaha. Maybe except one. I always liked to use the theory of 'sowing seeds of love'. I mean you can make friends with all sorts of girls and maybe hope one day you can get a flower that blooms beautifully. For me it's only one seed left (ie 1 girl left unattached, but she is definitely sought after by many guys I think) haha. Love is a very funny thing. I dunno but I would rather take my stride and hack care abt it. I dun really need love because I believe more in giving than taking. If you can make more people happy by giving, so be it. Why take and make more people sad just to make yourself happy? Haha. I dunno but that;s why i wanted to be a businessman. I see them earning so much money and giving so much money away at the same time! I mean you help to employ people, so they are living there for a purpose and with a purpose. Then if you can earn alot of money then you can do what you like. For me I dun want to live in any big house (btw, what's good about living in a big house when you find it difficult to see your mother) nor do I need any big car, power surround speakers, super computers etc. I rather be famous for things I have accomplished rather than for things I have. Anyway my ultimate aim if I managed to earn millions as a businessman is to retire and work in the farms, perhaps in Australia or Thailand (I am now considering in Europe too cos maybe I can go watch football at the stadiums but their living costs are much higher so u noe....) So what I would do with the millions? I told many people before that I wanted to reafforest the deserts. I really do. I have always thought if one day Earth became like Zion in the Matrix. No grass, no trees, no sun...wah lao, how to play football, go swimming like that? I would also like to the forests back so that they give me constant weather and not sometimes hot spells and sometimes rainy spells (our CNY week was one hell of a rain blast). Moreover I believe if I could reafforest the deserts then perhaps the sands would become soil and then the poor deprived Africans can use the soil to grow food for themselves. I believe with more trees around, the ecobalance will be restored and there will be less of pests around. Of course that will also mean less probabilities of SARS, bird flu etc.....but to me it's for the future of Earth..

So you ask me how did I get the idea of reafforesting the deserts. You ought to play this game called 'Chrono Trigger' and find out. Likewise, many of my weirdo behaviour, actions all came from the games I enjoy playing very much....u want to know? For example, I always say 'Zannen Desu Ne' when something bad happens cos this phrase came out in FF7 quite often (and I played the jap version ok!), my idea of being of 'holy' attribute (and thus not afraid of ghosts, and not being able to see them) came from FF4 when the Dark Knight converted to the Paladin....woah.

So I said I was childish. Man I am but you all dun believe me. hahahah...

And perhaps to SK and Jinqi...relax, don't really care abt what other ppl say and take it easy. Any problems do approach people to tok. Of cos I am not the best person to talk to since I have been branded ' act knowledgeable ' but do remember keeping all your tots to yourself is dangerous....

Well, if you want, you can exchange your dark tots with mine one for one. I do have my evil side you know~

Haha.

Regards
Jeffire

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